I sit here...tears falling on the keys as I type this...Having just putting down your book...I couldn't put it down. I wanted to...it was hitting me ...so many thoughts...How could I sit here and feel so bad about the things I had been through ...when you had been through what seemed to me so much more...frustrated with myself...then more and more I felt...anger, guilt, and just utter feelings of being worthless.As I read on I saw the patterns...I know them so well...but it seems easier to just lay down then to try to fight when you are so tired of the fake front...the fake smiles...the wanting to get the answers to WHY...4 years old in a dark livingroom,TV on and a man with no face....masturbates...that is the very first demon that has hung around my neck....all the abuse of being beat by my mother...trying to raise my brother at the age of 11 because my mother was suffering from what i know today was deep depression...be saought after at 15 by my mothers then husband...leaving home at 17 with promises of being taken care of and being safe...10 yrs later...hearing confessions from my then 4 yr old son...(finding out that my brother had molested both my son and daughter) of sexual abuse brought on my my own brother!!!....carrying the guilt that it was some how my fault because I raised him ...all the while continuing to stay married because I felt I deserved to be treated this way...I lost everything....my kids ...my home...my self-worth....then I got chapter 24 of your book...it is a wake up call...I have always been afraid of letting go of the anger,frustration and the other countless feelings...that in some way I wouldn't come back from it...scared as hell to really let my own mother know all of what I had been through...fear of not getting validation...There is no person around me that I have ever told every to...(defense walls) I have always thought I was a very weak person...as life goes on and I have my children to hold every nite...and I am in the process of ownin my own home...I realize through all I have been through, that I am a strong person...I want to thank you very much for having the courage and strength to tell your story...I don't feel alone and I am seeing that I am worth it...that life is worth the struggles...Angie